I don't know about you but sometimes my mind is my own worst enemy when it comes to my well being. lately I have had an issue with overthinking and worrying. I know I know this is not good. It get's me no where. I know better than this. Sometimes though, especially with all these planetary things going on and universal shifts it is easy to get lost and fall in to a hole if you will. Over the past few days I had done that... I fell into a dark hole and started thinking negative thoughts that were definitely lowering my vibration. Since Friday the 13th of last month I have been working more on releasing some issues from childhood that have haunted me even through adulthood ( these will be discussed in future blogs). I took a downward spiral over the past few days fighting my inner mental demons
and really didn't know how I was going to come out of it.. But let me tell you that when you have a connection with God, Spirit, the Universe, your Angels and Spirit Guides they will do the extra ordinary to get your attention. As i was getting ready for my day this morning I was listening to Stevie Nicks Radio on Pandora having a pitty party in the shower when all of the sudden the song changed and got louder. The song was My Own Hell by Five Finger Death Punch. The lyrics of the song made me realize what I was doing to myself.. REALIZE WHAT I JUST SAID.. WHAT I WAS DOING TO MYSELF. I was letting these bad thoughts and emotions control me and send me into a really bad place. Here are the lyrics below:
My Own Hell - Five Finger Death Punch
Twisting and turning, unable to sleep Will the voices ever stop? My thoughts speak louder the more I resist And they're driving me insane Do they ever go?
Inside I'm a danger to myself I'm a danger to myself Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell My own hell
Losing the battle I waged on myself Lock me up and toss the key Toys in the attic, it's all getting worse Why won't they let me be? Oh God, make it stop
Inside I'm a danger to myself I'm a danger to myself Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell My own hell
Fit me for a straight jacket Put me in a padded cell I'm a danger to you all And I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a danger to myself I'm a danger to myself Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell My own hell
Inside I'm a danger to myself I'm a danger to myself Inside I'm a prisoner in my own hell My own hell
This song playing on this station that in which it didn't belong proved as a sign or wake up call to get my act together. Of course I am still a work in progress but I am happy to say that I have pulled myself from the dark hole that I had been in for the past few days. What I am trying to say in all this is we are all a work in progress. We all have good days and bad days mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Unfortunately we don't always have someone to talk to that's why I make myself available to listen, talk, or just sit with you if that is what you need. We all need someone. I am working on the pieces of me. I hope this gives you the courage to work on your pieces. You are amazing. You are beautiful . YOU ARE WORTH IT!
